PAAGAL!

confused, irritated, mournful, sick of life !!!

feeling small, undermining self, 

sick of everything in life

crying..

feeling wonderful..like... life is better

like feeling happy once again

like its ohk..

silly :)

then analyzing life.. whats the reality??

whats life actually,whats happening?

why is that happening??

THINKING!!

then realizing what was i doing all this while??

what was i thinking?? whhhy??

am i going mad?!!

noo.. then?

just a lil problem, the problem is sitting soo idle!

sitting like life needs some reason ...

talking abt it with best friend

she says:

yehi hota hai jab "INTERNSHIP" HOLIDAYS MEIN Ghar pe baithte hain

:D seriously kuch toh kaam kar maate!

:D :D :D
;) :)

:)

finding strength in weaknesses!!.....

I am a strong girl , a girl with a mind and a soul

A heart and a brain ,

Love is what I feel is one of the best feelings to feel

Best things to shower ,

Life  is always a pragmatic thing along with love..

I know and I'm proud of thinking differently always……….

Gazing at life at times I feel,…

Why cry ?? Why laugh ?? Why hate?? Why love??

And knowing  the feeling of neutrality is sooo beautiful..

Peace is found in either my own thoughts or..

In a loved one's arms…

The mystical smiles out of no present contextual reason…

Those  urges in heart to stay happy,…

That unreasonable satisfaction in life

when I see a child happy

The feeling of loving oneself even when I feel abandoned by these earthly relations

That  losing myself to find my real self…

That sense of something inexpressible  may be nearing gladness or happiness or

Something saying inside of me "everything is simply perfect"

The chastity in being loyal to myself

The care in my own heart for myself

Indeed life here increases its own meaning….

In a new and wonderful bond with my-own-  self 
:)

Makes it seem   DEEP and LARGE

Smiling for life even when things aren't  perfect!!

Feeling special even in just breathing fresh air……..

Caring for my own self for the very first time

I find strength even In my weaknesses !!!!

<3 ly life!!!

hostel

Dunno what to name it..

If we call it independence or we call it freedom

If we say its new or we say its different

If we know it…or we know its .. Not ;)

Some way somehow it takes in its lay us all..

Some agree some don't

Some realise some can't

Some smile and some laugh!!!

Some way or the other it makes us all

A part of its different yet  one ..life

We don't know them

We at times even don't know us…

Still life is an open ocean…to discover

Muah!! To some -huh- to some

But we do talk to all

Some straight some cowardish

Also avoid some and cuddle some

Into their hearts…

But still I dunno what to call it ..

Is it fun or the frolic..

Is it love or likeness

Is it me or is it us..

Is it hostel or second home

BUT WHAT EVER ITS I'M LOVING IT !!!!

1000 X :)

:*

love: so abundant still is so scarce...
life so much empty without its air..
life says so ...that its worth a try
heart opposes :
i can't lose my last hope...
indeed life needs to improve..
indeed love has to be showered 


surely my life'll also see those all time happy days
which eyes couldn't see
i know someway...
its worthy to wait...
but tests and trials...
make impatience generate
and loneliness makes it worse
makes me feel like a corpse


i would like to know a person 
in whom i can get lost into without caring for the world..
with whom i can be me , the real me
as he would love me what ever situations are ....
who i could care for without any restrictions....
and he would deserve me totally!!
and finally who i could respect from the core of my heart
be proud to have him and be loved by him 




who i'd love 
and who loves  me back....
i know its all fixed by god still....
i feel like life .....needs to get it fast!!!!


(well i knw that it was a lil fantasy land type but it's what my heart says..., and i believe it'll come true someday !!!!)