empty reverie

So many thoughts.. so many emotions!!

Its just too much!

It was may be better when It was not serious.. or may be its better now!

But how can this be any good…

This is cruel!

So much to do..

And all It can make u think of… is distractions!

This is too bad! Too over whelming..

All my confusions for life…

Could they only find now’s time to move on to me…

Do they not have patience..

Can they not be polite enough to wait.. Till November end…

IS this cage gonna keep me in forever! Or is it so.. that..

I’m caged n my own mind.. n the world hasn’t changed

So much that crosses my mind..

So much to read so much to write…

So much to make happen!!!

So much to live! So much to learn…

So much to gain so much to earn..

Then why is it that I feel dead already..

How will I make do with this dead heart.. With this lost soul..

I don’t see any souls to borrow.. I see no lives to share..

N in this empty reverie… all I do is sit and stare…

All I wish is no mans love, all I wish is no diamonds, all I wish is no wins or losses

But just t find my soul and give a life to my heart…

All I wish is that all I wish is that

i don't need anybody!! do i?

I need somebody... to hold my hand

N tell me it’s all gonna be just fine…

I need somebody…to touch me… n melt me down…

I need somebody…to kiss me in the rain…

I need somebody…to pick me up when I fall

I need somebody…to toss  my sad face to happy…

I need somebody…to hug me n make me stop crying!

I need somebody…to hold me in their arms…

I need somebody…to make me feel special…

I need somebody to… smile at me …

N make my face light up!

I need somebody… to keep cracking jokes…

When they know I’m down..

I need somebody.. to stroke my hair…

Till I’m asleep…

I need somebody… to gaze at me ..

Like I’m their sun…

I need somebody… to cry when I’m gone!

I need somebody… to have a heart strong enough for me…

N give it to me..

I need somebody… who means it when

he says “you mean the world to me” …

I need somebody.. to whom I mean it all…

I need somebody.. who pumps & pampers me…

I need somebody…. Who hopelessly wanders in love with me…

I need somebody… who thinks I’m the most special of all…

I need somebody…. Who loves my quirks n craze..

I need somebody.. who knows me in and out…

N still can’t dream of life without..

I need somebody .. to do all that n respect me….

But oops!!! I’m an independent girl.. n can’t need anybody..for anything!

So… I shall forget that somebody.. n keep lying to myself throughout! 

lunatics!!! go live!!

go live!

said god to us when he sent us here! ... apparently!!

its a place where we are to live in moments.. for just a few moments...
n just wishing to be happy in the last moment we end up saddening and suffocating other

we are scared to live fully .. apphrending the disappointment tommorow offers
we are scared to love who we want to.. apphrending what our heart might say tommorow
we are scared to spend, to laugh , to play, to lean on ,. to do anything scarcely in connection to the future without thinking

we are so busy "valuing" this life that we lose its value altogether
we are so scared that we even end up breathing cautiously!

we forget the main thing god said to us before he sent us here " go LIVE!!"
we forget that "live" All the time...
if we love, we are afraid to say, if we say weare afraid to stay, if we stay we are afraid to lose...
if only! we could stop being so afraid, we could start living!!!!

learn from a baby... he doesn't care if u love him or not
if he lives tommorow or not he is so happy in himself that he doesn't even notice anything else!!

if there is a feeling!!  if there is an impuse !!! the best reaction is to forget EVERYTHING else !!! and act on it! :)
if there is a life that we value we must value it without making it a punishment!
it should be FREE!! and pick any sucessful man/woman,
they didn't succeed coz, their mom told them to get a grt CGPA or coz their dad said "this is what i want u to earn"

they did coz they did what they loved!!
earn how much u feel u need!!!
run after happiness, satisfaction, solace, craze, and a li'l insanity
coz if u didn't skip a beat everytime u thought of what u did all day, all life!! u didn't really live! :)

:)

U Are what u think u are…

Love thy self! N the world would want to…

If u think… it’s all over! Life has NOTHING u ever wished…

Then trust god n his miracles….

If u think… life is nothing but a shitty fucking mundane place to be… so be it!

If u think that who ever runs this world.. Has been ur enemy n… is taking his revenge! So be it!

Fight with him! Hate him!

But NEVER! Never ever stop loving and believing in yourself!

Don’t stop being n trying to reach what u want!!!

Make your own path!!! N JUST FOR ONCE!!! STOP BLAMING ANYBODY, even YOU!!

Stop thinking why??? N start enjoying now!!! However tht now is…

Ppl hate u… u feel intimidated, afraid... like a nobody around some / many ppl u know…

Fuck them, chuck them or even better… put aside the intimidation n know them!

you’ll realize.. Those perfect ppl aren’t as perfect as you thought!!

Be confident and ambitious…. Don’t EVER! Think no.. yaar I’m not that good.. Or I can’t be that great!

NOTHING! Mind u NOTHING is impossible! N…

When things that matter lose weight! u are nothing better than dead meat!

Coz a dead passion is only for dead people..

Be a fighter!!!!

Till u live! FIGHT!!!

FEEL…. right wrong, good, bad, lucky, unlucky, happy unhappy, grumpy delighted, excited, cheap, cool, lost, found, irritated, loved, blessed, in love, out of it… lovable, kissable, idiotic, suffocated, stupid, embarrassed, blushing, on the 9th cloud, jealous, warm, hot, wasted, giggly, Anything and everything that happens!!!! FEEL!!! …

N WHATEVER U FEEL! Express!!! J

DO IT RELIGIOUSLY … N U WON’T EVEN KNOW WHEN U ARE TOO BUSY TO OVER THINK!!.. try it once.. after all we can always try! ;)

a lost one...

Itne paas nahi the hum…. Koi khaas nahi thi tum…

Phir bhi hamesha eek muskaaan  dejaati thi tum…

Jab bhi milti thi tumse… muskaan ek khaas pehnaa jaati thi ...

Jaane kya jaadoo that tum mein… jo yoon..kuch naaa bol k bhi hasaa jaati thi tum…

Aaj bhi jab tumhare kamre k paas se guzartii hoon.. sochti hoon..

Ek baar jhaan k toh dekhoon… kahin mil jao tum wahin mujhe… phir se..

Kahin ye sab koi sapna ho..….

Koi khaas nahi thi tum, itne paas nahi thehum… phir bhi..

Hostel mein… kayeen baar aisa laga k tumko dekha ho maine….

Kabhi baarish hui toh kabhi thandi hawa…

Yaad kyu aayi tum mujhe.. jab..

Koi khaas nahi thi tum.. itne paas nahi thehum…

Tumhare doson k chere k soone pan mein…

Tumhe batch ki farwell picture mein…

Har uss chere pe… jise dii ho tumne kabhi koi musaan….

Tumhe dhoondti kyu paati hoon khudko main..

Jab itne paas nahi the hum.. koi khaas nahi thi tum? 

again...

i wait.. i season, i love with no reason..

then go all into being unstable, and all into being happy...again.

i love dancing the dirty dance, i care.. enough or no.. i dunno
i hurt more than i should, tht i knw..

i sing.. to rythm of the universe, to the trees..

to all the nature i love..

but then.. i care.. for things tht shouldn't bother me...

and i dance.. like its raining all over again..

i make sense, then i don't again... i laugh and then i cry again

i like and then let it disappear like it never was.... ever before...

but whatever i do.. who ever i puzzle..i know.. i'm meant to be better..

i know its meant to be awesome once again..

when my confidence can never be shaken again,

when all the power rests in me.. when.. i'm strong again...

my heart skips a beat... ;)

when i see the shiny stars ....
and i see u shining in the dark
when u see me with those gorgeous eyes

my heart skips a beat...

when u talk to me with ...
and make me laugh!!....
and laugh with that perfect innocence of a child...

my heart skips a beat...


when i'm sad.. and u're there..
to make me smile... to help me cheer...
and then tell me "i'll never leave u alone"

my heart skips a beat

when u make me smile..
just when i'm about to cry...
or cry along till i laugh

my heart skips a beat

when i'm happy.. normal as usual..
u see the loneliness in my eyes...
and hug me with the warmth of sunshine....

my heart skips a beat... and what a melody it is.... :)

Ek ladki…

Ek ladki… ki zindagii shuru se hi badi.. “adventurous” hoti hai…

Paida hote hi…ya to sabki laadli bann jaati hai..

Ya.. Sabki nafat

Par … Jitni badi wo hoti jaati hai uski life k adventures bhi bade hone lagte hain…

Ekdum khoobsurat se frock pehenne ki baat  ho.. ya

10-12 saal ki honte hi… uske pehnawe per rok tok ki…

Har tarah ka fashion karne ki baat ho…ya

15-16 k hote hi Uski fashion ko limit karwane kii…

Acche khaase careers mein paardashi hone k sapne dekhne ki ho.. ya

usko career se “family” ki importance zyaada batanee kii…

Aankhon mein bachpann se shaadi k sapnon ki ho..ya..

Shaadi mein ladiyon ko hi samjaute karne padne ki seekh milne ki baat…

Ek chota sa.. pyaara sa.. dhadakta dil iss duniya mein lane ki baat ho.. ya Us dil hi hifazat k liye apne mann ko maarne ki..

Chahe jo ho har ladki ki zindagii… hoti badi adventurous hai…

ha naa???